Sunday, November 25, 2018
I'm not sure why I made it.
I had been shaken to my core in 2008 when Jdimytai Damour, the Wal-Mart worker, was trampled to death by crowds of holiday bargain shoppers. Then and there I opted out of buying Christmas gifts. The idea of holiday shopping made me feel ill -- and somehow complicit. It still does. Since then, my family and friends have suffered through all manner of handmade nonsense, each item made with love, of course, and reflecting the immeasurable love I feel for each of them.
For me, a handmade advent calendar is the antithesis of holiday commercialism. It requires you to slow down just a tiny bit and reflect. Even if all you're reflecting on is a bit of silliness. One year I painted a watercolor Christmas tree and copied it onto glossy paper, with brightly colored ornaments doodled with markers. The ornaments said words like "love" or "joy," or were just abstract patterns. Small removable dot stickers with numbers covered them. Very simple. Even after some elaborate years -- with garlands of envelopes packed with snacks, songs, leather goods, and funny legal documents (!) -- a few people have said that little tree is their favorite. There is something refreshing about simplicity around the holidays.
As an Episcopal, I know that the liturgical season of Advent neither regularly begins on Dec. 1 nor ends on Dec. 25th (it is instead marked by the four Sundays before Christmas and ends on Christmas eve), but I think those dates make for a more universal holiday experience (and more uniform calendar production, for sure). In the church, the season of Advent is the beginning of the church year and is a time of waiting and self-preparation for the coming of Christ, who is sometimes referred to as "a light in the darkness."
In the liturgy, there are four colored advent candles, representing (depending on who you ask) hope, peace, joy, and love, lit weekly. And while some years I've included bible passages, hymns, or doodles of baby Jesus, for the most part my calendars are rather secular. I'm partial to those (hopefully) universal candle themes, and that of the fifth candle, called the Christ candle: light for the world.
My best friend Jean is an atheist and many years ago recounted to me the sweet conversation she had with her son when he asked what Christmas was. She told him (in similar words) that all around the world, in most every culture, during the season that's darkest, people come together to celebrate light.
These calendars might be my way of providing a reminder (for others and myself) that, no matter how difficult these times may be for us, the light is coming. It comes from above and also within. And it can be found in strangers, acts of kindness, and steaming pies. Darkness always exists, but, together, our light can overcome it.